Shaunti Feldhahn

hi there..i just had a break up last night with my boyfriend.. actually before we had our relationship, he mentioned already that he doesn't want to marry someday and he also doesn't  want to have a kid. He just wanted to enjoy his single life. But still, I fell in love with him. We have different attitudes, he's the easy-go-lucky guy while i'm the more matured type. I'm responsible for my family because I'm the only one who works for them. They really depend on me and I'm happy and proud that I'm really taking care of my family. He is from a well-to-do family and he's the only guy in his clan. He's still dependent on his parents but he's always against them. He was a drug addict
before and he was in a rehab 4 years ago. He recovered and he worked in a hospital as a Chef. That was the time that I met him and we get along well. But I resigned from my work there. Until recently, we found out that he's using drugs again so his family suggested to subject him into a drugtest so we can verify because he was denying that he used it.He was positive so his dad decided to limit his night-outs and we also confiscated his phone and money. He was only given his parking fees and gas allowance for his car. It was a big decision for all of us but we just wanted the best for him. I know our relationship is also affected because we have no means of communication for a while but I'm willing to sacrifice for his sake. I understand his parents and because of that, his family and I became more close to each other. We communicate constantly because we always check him if he's okay. Eventually he was depressed because he felt we controlled his life now. He can't go out and do whatever he wants to do because he's always guarded by his parents. He's always irritable and temperamental in his work. I always fetch him from work to comfort him and to listen to his problems because I can really feel that he's hurting a lot. He's always in denial of himself. Sometimes he's so self-centered that he forget about me. But still, I understand him because I really love him and I wanted him to realize how lucky he is to have a very supportive family. He made a decision to break up with me bacause he said he's so tired of complying with the rules that we've  made. I'm really hurt because I thought he appreciates all the efforts that I made for him..For him to be a better person. He said he wanted us to be friends. He's not comfortable with his situation right now so he's trying to avoid me. He's not that ready to invest his feelings because in the end, he still wanted to be alone. Again it's too cliche for him to tell that it's best for me if we separate than stay and get hurt eventually. So we decided to end our relationship but he still wanted us to be friends. I accepted that because I know he still needs me because he's a very weak person....emotionally weak to be specific.. I'm praying that he'll be more matured in his life so he can appreciate the people around him. I'm not expecting that we'll be together again but I'm wishing that he'll change and regain his faith. His psychiatrist from the rehab said that drug users initially losses faith and it is also the last thing that they regain. His family and I always pray for him.. Right now, he's busy with his work and he always go straight home from work. Although we don't communicate anymore, his parents always update me with his condition. Thanks for reading my story..I'm quite relieved because I was able to share this...Thanks.. Feel free to post your advices and comments...I really need them right now.. God Bless us all...